remember this anthony!!!
been too tense up... due to work..i have felt the tension is so high before however i'm glad.. working long hours even on friday night i ended back in office trying hard to see what is left undone... but i guess jobs never end.. very soon i will be loaded with work again..
i'm learning alot that i never tried before.. everytime i meet mistakes i learn to be more careful the next time round... i do like this kind of feeling but i guess i wish i can give myself less tense.. it is hard to be so afriad of reading your emails and trying to find out ways and solution to meet thier requirements. but then everytime u make a call out or arrange an appointment i can only go down there and take a look trying to find out what could be wrong.. i must constantly remind myself to talk lesser in future if i'm not very technical in explaining some things. cause some people are good at picking your words.. and target you... cruel this world is...
it is always me i guess who is rushing into things.. i may not be a prefectionist but sometimes i just want to show that i'm attempting to do my very best in things that are handle to me.. cause at least i wont regret later.. i told myself alot of time that there is no time for me to regret at least u try or do your best already.. but well i'm still human afterall will always think back and say to myself why i didnt try harder or i should have do it this way so that i wont have such problem... knowing my weakness but not trying to remember it or keep behaving or walking back to the same ground dont make u stronger only make u more foolish at times but why i cant just be more careful then haiz.. guess i'm not that smart in real.. dumb dumb me..
sometimes i guess i'm too blunt i dont think it once throught before i say things out it is always hurtful i also know this shows the immature side of me.. well anthony pls buck up and if forget what u says come back take a look at this blog u wrote to say about your feelings.. and then try to register to your old cpu.... ha it is faulty always..
i been happy too, with her around, life spice up... i know at times i do say wrong words or maybe do some things that i shouldn't or what ever selffish things i do..may make her feel uncomfortable or make her upset or troubled but really wish i can just purely bring her happiness and let her know there is someone there for her if she needs a support .. i can really put her my piorities as each time i think of having her by myself i felt very lucky...
i wish that weekend could be longer also.. so i can more time with her.. but well i know very soon i will have lesser time to see her and she will also be busy soon... i guess i just try my best again i guess. my very best to make someone happy may cause disturbance..hahaha aiyoh.. faintz..
i love you...
friends of mine wack me if i make mistakes again ! thanks!
brain dead... cant think feel that it is tearing apart i think too much....
ha... dont worry people
just busy over work..
a little tense up and do having headache once a while..
but well life still seem not bad
try to update over weekend hopfully i more free
take care all my friends
super tired week
so tired until ah... nearly fall sick..
busy and stressful week last week. so much work on hand i dont know how finish it..just keep doing it and 1 after another keep coming in...
cases after cases.. but contented liao .. at least got things to do .. just feel that i'm not skill enough to handle just scare give shit to my partners and bosses if i didnt do my part well.. well 1 shit is coming soon... but guess not my issue i already did my best i think..
tune also tune already fix also fix already ..
what else can be wrong new goods cant be faulty right?
well cant be bothered just hope that it will be smoother on other project..
went to meet dear last min on wed as i was at west.. have dinner and do shopping together..
ah.. dear brought me a pouch for my o2..
went to bugis on friday to get yi's present meet up with dear.. very sweet of her just to company me find gift.. then end up with ping and her dar.. also hunting for yi's present.. ha.. we end up eating at feicui...but only have desserts as we had dinner earlier.. after that we apart and i go gai gai with my dear watch movie take pics and play games ha... i think i play more games than her.. she just sits and watch me play.. -_-" well must play together mah..
the movie was korean hahah.. never intend to watch that. .but well not that bad after all at least it is a funny show but a little lame..
wonder if dear will get bored by me when i talk so much as we walk down to find nr3 when i send her home.. but ha... i just enjoy having her by my side.. and she is like always willing to suffer with me in such long journey walk..
then next on sat, prepare to meet up with hui, yi, ping, ming, ray, jem add my gf and hui's gf... to celebrate yi's pre birthday..
it was rather fun.. hui and popo was there early to fly kite, ha.. and thier kite flies high well me and dear try to fly 1 super heavy 1 didnt manage to make it go high but well later we took over from them and collect back the kite -_-" but it was very fun .. dont know why also... that time i was quite happy even just to see the kite fly far....
then we went to eat our steam bbq buffet.. wha took alot of piccy of my friends.. so funny.. but too bad i wasnt feeling well didnt get much involved... there was firework display all the sudden and it was really a much pretty sight even thought it was block by trees, strange again having someone with u share to see fireworks look even more enjoyable..
after that like forever we are endless we end up at hotel lounge to chit chat and relax having a nice wine was wonderful specially with her by my side..
well everything still have to comes to an end... happy birthday liyi even thought it is 1 week in advance really hope u enjoy your day...
:)
a lot like....
alot like.. i copy from the movie alot like love.. ;P
well doesnt matter as long as it is nice right..
and fans out there pls dont whack me..
out with my dear for the past few days never feel happier seeing her..
i hope she feels the same..
she becomes lovelier each and everyday..
i also want to say sorry to her for a thing or maybe more than 1 thing
i didnt handle well..
i feel bad after that.. not of considering of her feelings...
i'm still learning..really..knowing i'm a dumb guy..and do dumb things
and not sensitive enough at certianly things, think my friends all know about my problems also
must constantly reminds myself..
friends of mine and my dear pls constantly reminds me of things i do not well .. or did badly without considering your feelings, be loud say it to my face if i dont realise it myself fast, , cause u know lah i need to wake up from my idea too ..
i know myself alot of flaws also ... even at work i didnt handle certain things well too .. i also argue out.. then i realise 1 thing too ... a line i must learn...not everything must argue or says things out it makes u u show more mistakes and flaws must try to listen to others first..
things should be make simple not make it complicated..if u dont know really must say dont know and dont fail must know your mistake and learn from there..then go and find out the best way to correct your mistake and work things out slowly. 1 thing for sure no one is prefect but many are demanding for prefections ... do your best can liao ... really cannot say cannot...
i must learn to wake up faster and realise mistakes asap..
enough of work tomorrow will be another tired day ..
i will gain confident when mistakes are made and corrected..
my dear is a simple girl, i know she is not demanding me to do alot of things for her..
thats why the more i know her i feel i love the right person.. when u love somemore more
u just wish to give her your best too.. hahah reminds me of 1 thing must take things slower again..
i really feel i'm very blessed now... every simple things i doing now make me happy.. even i'm stress up i feel happy.. cause i been given chance to learn to solve it...
and i know if i dont cherish what i having now it will be gone like a dream, in order to make my dream become reality and last super long.. i must work extra hard to maintian it.. cause not everything come so easily.... and with things that are smooth now more troubles and problems will also resurfaced up .. so take it like a man to solve it deal with it..
papa, mama, gu ma, kor kor and sis in law love u all also..
dear i love you also ..
friends i love you peoples out there..
all my relatives i love u people also ..
cherish whatever u have, even it is the shortest moment in life..
work
work is.... both exciting yet frightening..
when u are lucky everything is smooth..
when u are unlucky, all i say is good luck..
well i kinda like my job now.. cause i'm like learning a new things from every people i met...
and certianly it is a new experience gain..
and sometimes.. when u know and the only way to know it is to do your own testing it is the best way to learn and gain knowledge..
learn from experience.. ah ..
stress but i like..
i must learn not to make work with personnel feelings soon..
well work is still very stressful
i must secure my place..
