remember this anthony!!!

been too tense up... due to work..i have felt the tension is so high before however i'm glad.. working long hours even on friday night i ended back in office trying hard to see what is left undone... but i guess jobs never end.. very soon i will be loaded with work again..

i'm learning alot that i never tried before.. everytime i meet mistakes i learn to be more careful the next time round... i do like this kind of feeling but i guess i wish i can give myself less tense.. it is hard to be so afriad of reading your emails and trying to find out ways and solution to meet thier requirements. but then everytime u make a call out or arrange an appointment i can only go down there and take a look trying to find out what could be wrong.. i must constantly remind myself to talk lesser in future if i'm not very technical in explaining some things. cause some people are good at picking your words.. and target you... cruel this world is...

it is always me i guess who is rushing into things.. i may not be a prefectionist but sometimes i just want to show that i'm attempting to do my very best in things that are handle to me.. cause at least i wont regret later.. i told myself alot of time that there is no time for me to regret at least u try or do your best already.. but well i'm still human afterall will always think back and say to myself why i didnt try harder or i should have do it this way so that i wont have such problem... knowing my weakness but not trying to remember it or keep behaving or walking back to the same ground dont make u stronger only make u more foolish at times but why i cant just be more careful then haiz.. guess i'm not that smart in real.. dumb dumb me..

sometimes i guess i'm too blunt i dont think it once throught before i say things out it is always hurtful i also know this shows the immature side of me.. well anthony pls buck up and if forget what u says come back take a look at this blog u wrote to say about your feelings.. and then try to register to your old cpu.... ha it is faulty always..

i been happy too, with her around, life spice up... i know at times i do say wrong words or maybe do some things that i shouldn't or what ever selffish things i do..may make her feel uncomfortable or make her upset or troubled but really wish i can just purely bring her happiness and let her know there is someone there for her if she needs a support .. i can really put her my piorities as each time i think of having her by myself i felt very lucky...
i wish that weekend could be longer also.. so i can more time with her.. but well i know very soon i will have lesser time to see her and she will also be busy soon... i guess i just try my best again i guess. my very best to make someone happy may cause disturbance..hahaha aiyoh.. faintz..


i love you...

friends of mine wack me if i make mistakes again ! thanks!

posted by antrence @ 8:08 AM